At a glance
Cortney shares her personal account of overcoming an addiction to prescription opioids and becoming a champion for others in recovery.
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Cortney's story
From just one pill...
My first prescription opioid pill came from a girlfriend when I was 16, who told me that it was safe and harmless because it came from her doctor. But that pill flipped a switch inside me that took away my emotional pain and made me numb. I knew hard drugs were illegal and taboo, but I didn't think that these pills were dangerous. I had no idea that I could actually get addicted—I just knew that I felt sick when I stopped taking them.
I went from being an honors student and varsity athlete, to a high school dropout in just one year. I tried to go to college after getting my GED, but my life revolved around using pills. I was so dependent on the pills, that I became a shell of the person that I used to be. I stopped eating, lost weight, my skin was ashen and gray, my eyes sank into the sockets, and my hair became so brittle. Even worse, my personality was not there anymore, I was only functioning to get money to get more opioids to prevent getting sick.
Turning it all around
My family tried to get me into treatment programs, but as soon as I started feeling the symptoms of withdrawal, I would sign myself out. Finally, things changed right after my 19th birthday. I was living with a gang, had warrants out for my arrest in four counties, and had destroyed almost every meaningful relationship. My absolute lowest point was when I drove to a rural town and tried to intentionally overdose on multiple drugs. I had resigned myself to the idea that I was going to die addicted to drugs. There was no hope or fight left in me. That night I should have died, but instead, I woke up cold and confused in my car the next morning. It was then that I decided to stop running.
Thanks to recovery resources and wonderful support from peers and counselors, I realized that I didn't have to live that way anymore; I realized recovery really was possible for me. This was not the end of my journey; I had to climb out of a really big hole. With the burden of legal expenses, lack of education, strain on the relationships in my life – I had a lot to heal and repair as I moved forward with my life.
Sharing my story to help others with recovery
So many amazing people helped me through my recovery process, making me feel like I was worth getting treatment and really living a good life. Because of this experience, I work to support others on their addiction and recovery journeys. I know how disheartening it feels to have people judge and stigmatize you. I am hoping to use the insights I've gained in the last 10 years of recovery to give others the same hope and encouragement I received. I know how profound it can be to have people share their own experiences with you, knowing that they may have gone through even worse, yet are living full lives.
Now, I work to let people know that no matter what you have done, there is so much life left to live.
Resources
CDC's Overdose Prevention Website
Learn more about opioid misuse and overdose, data, and prevention resources.
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